Life is not easy

I did something really bad. I was offered to work with Ah Long (assist) by locking people gates or splashing paint. Which i preferred locking gates.. This "Ah Long" wanted someone urgently to work with me, so i tried asking my cousin if he want to work. He then agreed with what i asked, and we worked with this Ah Long for only a day which we are paid $425/- but divided it by 2. I earned $212.50/- but i received $210/-. I desperately need money because a few days time i need that money to pay my hospital bills. Which i don't wish them to bill out to my house and that is where i am afraid my mom read out the letter.

On the 25/3/2014 i was ambushed by the officers from Clementi Police Station at my boyfriend's house. They brought me out and took my to have my lunch and explained to me further more about why are they doing this.. They make used of me to make a trap of my cousin and his wife, which i don't want to do it. My cousin and his wife were involve at this case but his wife did not lock any of the doors. She only helped us wrote down the Unit number and handphone number that is stated on a piece of paper.

I called them (my cousin) while i was eating with the officers, i lied to them that i argued with my boyfriend and i'm currently at Jurong area. He told me he is going for an interview at Balestier but meeting me at Toa Payoh MRT Station.. The police bring me there to make a trap for them. They were late, so i seated at McDonald to have my "lunch" to show that the trap is not going to be obvious.

At about 5pm+ they reached and the officers ambushed us in about 10 minutes later.

This is where i felt guilty, they have two kids with them.. and what if that happened to me, i am currently pregnant with 9 weeks 2 days. I don't know what to explain to them after this, i tried my best to help my cousin and his wife but i guess i failed. I told them the truth but alternate of the door locks is faulty and some doors we did not lock the door but we locked the metal grill instead.

I am just hoping for the best and preparing for the worst. I/O Goh promised me that he will try his best to save me and not let me serve the charges because of my family situation and also myself carrying a baby with me. Hais, i don't wish to get charge because i can't leave anyone who is with me........ Also i am definitely not giving birth in prison at all!

I am now on bail, 26/3/2014 i have bailed out from lock up. I will need to report again next two weeks which is on 7/4/2014 at the same station i went for investigation again.

Before bailing out just now, Iraa (my cousin's wife) told me that the Ah Long is in the holding room. She describe to what shirt he is wearing. I was surprise he was caught within few hours apart from us. But serve him right!

Thats all for today, will update when i need to let my feelings out........

2.49 AM

27/3/2014